If….

Sometimes, I sit and think of what my life would have been if. If both my parents weren’t addicts. If I would have taken that scholarship to The University of Texas. If I would have not become a teenage mother. If I would have not wasted 17 years in a marriage that was going downhill. If I would have stayed living in Texas and not moved back to California. If I would have chosen the addiction field to start my career in, instead of education. So many ifs that will go unanswered. Then the thought of if I would have learned what I know about addiction sooner, if I could have really made a difference in my parents life. I believe the answer to that is no, so I can relinquish that responsibility. However, today as I serve my clients in a clinical supervisor role I do wonder if the work I have done is making a difference and the answer to that is a big fat YES. That I am sure of, if nothing else.