Tag: writing

Friday was my father’s birthday. I gave him a call to wish him happy birthday and in the process asked him if he had taken time to read my blog. His response was no. I must say that in that moment I felt hurt. I don’t know why after all these years I still let his lack of support hurt me. It’s not like he has supported me. It’s not like he was present when I needed him. It’s not like we have the closet relationship, but it still hurts.

As a mother I support my children in everything they do, always have and always will. Can I be there for everything, probably not but they know they can count on me. I will move mountains for them and I can’t imagine it any other way. I don’t understand parents that aren’t supportive. Why not support your children? Now if they are doing something illegal or immoral I can see not supporting foolishness, but otherwise why not?

So many times,we are our worst critic. We notice the imperfections. We feel the disappointment. We harbor the hurt. So many times, we feel like it’s our fault. If I would have….why didn’t I. We hold on to these negative thoughts about ourselves, no matter how wonderful others tell us we are. I am guilty of that, too.

How do we overcome this…by giving ourselves grace. Grace is defined as an attractively polite manner of behaving. Most of us will extend grace to others, like the person who asks to cut in line because they only have one item or the driver that is impatient just to save a millisecond, but how often do you say to yourself you did your best, it’s ok to fail, next time or it will be alright?

More often than not, we go straight to negative thinking, casting stones at ourselves. My hope is that today you stop and say it’s ok, you are human, you make mistakes. You put one foot in front of the other and keep going forward with your head held high, knowing that tomorrow is a new day, a new opportunity to be great!

Last week was rough mentally. I have come to realize that no matter how good you think life is, it will throw you a curve ball every now and then. Thankfully, I am resilient. I am able to turn curve balls into home runs…most times! As a clinical supervisor, I wear a multitude of hats. Each day is different, and not all days are good days, but I still find the work rewarding…most times! Slowly, I am starting to think about my next chapter, though. This line of work can get monotonous over time, and lately, I have been finding myself wanting something new, something different, something exciting…most times!

My husband created a t-shirt line called LIFE Living In Faith Everyday. The message is simple yet complicated. Faith is defined as complete trust or confidence in someone or something. Living by faith takes courage and for some that is challenging. I am married and having faith in my husband to lead, protect, provide and stay committed to me is scary and for some it is so terrifying they decide not to marry because they don’t have that type of faith in another person. That is one reason why when the faith is broken there can no longer be a relationship. Ask yourself how strong is your faith? Do you have total trust and confidence in someone or something?